A long time ago... August 26, 2001, to be exact, a word of knowledge was spoken. I received that word and even went as far as to type it up and affix it to my checkbook cover as a reminder. Through the years, the tape I used lost it's stickiness and it fell off.
Out of the blue last week, that worn piece of taped paper ended up on my desk. Looking at it, I can see holes in it so I must have hung it on my bulletin board above my desk... only to have attached other things over top of it. I read it, recogized it, and stuck it under my keyboard to read later.
Today, as I walked back into my office, (I was only gone a few minutes) I see laying, smack dab in the middle of my chair, that word..... God is trying his best to get my attention.... I know because of a verse that always shows up when a word is spoken over me....
The word was:
"Have I not said unto you that I will not withhold anything from them that walk uprightly. If ye abide in Me and My Word abide in you, you can ask what you will and it shall be done. I am a living God. You will serve and worship a living God. I'm the God of the past, I'm the God of the present, and I am the God of your future. Trust in Me, saith God - Lean to Me, look to Me, saith the Lord and I will make ways where there is no way. I will provide where there is no provision, for I Am the Lord your God who loves and cares for you".
I've been a very hard headed child lately.... I know what I need to do... I just have a hard time doing it. Yet, He has been very patient.... I'm grateful for his mercy. Forgive me, Father... I repent.
John 15: 1-7
1 I am the true vine, and My Father is the vinedresser. 2 Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit, He takes away; and every branch that bears fruit, He prunes it so that it may bear more fruit. 3 You are already clean because of the word which I have spoken to you. 4 Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself unless it abides in the vine, so neither can you unless you abide in Me. 5 I am the vine, you are the branches; he who abides in Me and I in him, he bears much fruit, for apart from Me you can do nothing. 6 If anyone does not abide in Me, he is thrown away as a branch and dries up; and they gather them, and cast them into the fire and they are burned. 7 If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
Consequences of excuses
Each of the 5 girls were told to put a white coverall suit on over top of their bathing suits. As each of the girls gave their excuses for not sticking to the diet and workout program, someone would write those excuses on their white suit. They were covered in excuses... Some were like "I'm too tired", "I just didn't care", "I don't feel like it", etc... very legit at the time, I'm sure. Then they had to stand in front of a mirror with their excuses written all over them.... THEN... and this was the kicker for me... they were told to take off their white suits and look at the consequences of their excuses did to their bodies.... I gotta tell you, it was eye opening to me.
I have wanted to start working out again.... and I have a plethora of excuses. I have asthma and I am having a hard time breathing, when I get home the baby is calling for me, the dog will bark if he hears me go downstair, the treadmill is buried with the Sweet Pea's larger toys, I'm tired.... the list goes on and on.... sigh.... and as I write those excuses on my imaginary white coverall suit, I know that the reality is, there are no excuses... Just poor decisions...
Thursday, October 15, 2009
People in glass houses.....
I could not believe it. How could they do it? All I can think is; those foolish people. I just could not grasp the concept of how they could turn their backs on Him. All that murmuring and muttering.... How could they willingly turn from trusting Him to whining about going back? Don't they realize what they are doing? Don't they realize that they wanted to go back into bondage and slavery after being set free? They had seen the waters part for goodness sakes!! They were fed fresh manna every day without fail. They were following His visible glory. HE was leading them. They were headed for the Promised Land. The land God had for them. What were they thinking??
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But, who am I to judge? I, too, have seen the miracle of God. Oh sure, I personally have not seen the waters part... I have never gone out on my lawn and picked up my manna for the day.... But, I have seen the provision of God in my life many times. I have felt His presence. I have heard His voice....
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So, what am I thinking? Why is it that I don't trust God in my heart? Oh, I say I trust Him; however, my thoughts contradict that. The fears and frets in my heart say that I don't trust Him completely. And He knows. I am such a foolish child. From where He sits, this makes me no better than the Israelites back in the wilderness. How I must hurt the heart of God with my doubts and fears. How would I feel if my own children wouldn't trust me to be sure that I had their back if they needed something?
Actually, in my mind, I am worse than the Israelites wandering in the desert. They were not able to go to His throne. Due to Christ's sacrifice, I can. How deceived have I allowed myself to be? I have allowed the chains of fear and distrust to put me back into bondage. My murmuring and muttering and actions probably mimicked those back then. I find myself saying life was better when I didn't know better. Others can do things that I can't do any longer. They don't have to live a consecrated life. They get to have more fun, or so it appears... I seem to have forgotten the big picture....
If I be honest, I guess part of the problem is that I don't have the relationship I use to have with Him. Back when I saw the miracles and wonders I was also spending more time in His presence. I have allowed so many things to take my time away from him. Work, TV, sleep, internet, they all seem to take priority. I find myself fretting instead of thanking. I find myself worrying instead of trusting... God has not changed, I have.
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Thankfully, He knows my story from beginning to end... It's time to drag myself out of the miry clay I've allowed myself to get stuck in. I realize that.... Once again, it's time to get out of the wilderness mentality and more forward into my promises from God... I'm going to move into my Promised Land of milk and honey ... Hopefully I can make that move and not look back...
Psalm 18:2
The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer;My God, my strength, in whom I will trust; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
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But, who am I to judge? I, too, have seen the miracle of God. Oh sure, I personally have not seen the waters part... I have never gone out on my lawn and picked up my manna for the day.... But, I have seen the provision of God in my life many times. I have felt His presence. I have heard His voice....
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So, what am I thinking? Why is it that I don't trust God in my heart? Oh, I say I trust Him; however, my thoughts contradict that. The fears and frets in my heart say that I don't trust Him completely. And He knows. I am such a foolish child. From where He sits, this makes me no better than the Israelites back in the wilderness. How I must hurt the heart of God with my doubts and fears. How would I feel if my own children wouldn't trust me to be sure that I had their back if they needed something?
Actually, in my mind, I am worse than the Israelites wandering in the desert. They were not able to go to His throne. Due to Christ's sacrifice, I can. How deceived have I allowed myself to be? I have allowed the chains of fear and distrust to put me back into bondage. My murmuring and muttering and actions probably mimicked those back then. I find myself saying life was better when I didn't know better. Others can do things that I can't do any longer. They don't have to live a consecrated life. They get to have more fun, or so it appears... I seem to have forgotten the big picture....
If I be honest, I guess part of the problem is that I don't have the relationship I use to have with Him. Back when I saw the miracles and wonders I was also spending more time in His presence. I have allowed so many things to take my time away from him. Work, TV, sleep, internet, they all seem to take priority. I find myself fretting instead of thanking. I find myself worrying instead of trusting... God has not changed, I have.
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Thankfully, He knows my story from beginning to end... It's time to drag myself out of the miry clay I've allowed myself to get stuck in. I realize that.... Once again, it's time to get out of the wilderness mentality and more forward into my promises from God... I'm going to move into my Promised Land of milk and honey ... Hopefully I can make that move and not look back...
Psalm 18:2
The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer;My God, my strength, in whom I will trust; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
We're baaack!
It was great to be away for a week! Vacation was a good time for all! My mom, Aunt Bea, Buddy, Sweet Pea and I had a great time in Myrtle Beach.
The Ripley's Aquarium was great! There wa a walk thru section where it was as if we were walking on the floor of the ocean. The sharks, fish, and sea turtles were swimming all around and above us. Sweet Pea loved it... she did not see Nemo, but that's ok... she did she lots of other friends!
The ocean was wonderfully warm and even I dipped my toe in it! Not as much as Sweet Pea!
She really enjoyed the lazy river (there were two where we were staying!)
And look... I got in, too!!!
But her absolute favorite thing at night... the bubble bath in the jacuzzi! The first night we took her out, I swear I was sure Child Protective Services would be knocking at the door because she was screaming to get back in!
Yes, a good time was had by all. It was sad to leave, but we can hopefully look forward to another trip next year!
Tomorrow.... back to reality!
Friday, October 2, 2009
How quick time flies....
Yup, it's been over a year since we were blessed and thrilled to be granted custody of Sweet Pea... It was official back on Sept. 22, 2008. We were supposed to be leaving a few days prior for vacation in the Outer Banks when we discovered our court date was that Monday. There was much anticiapation on my end as to what the outcome would be and that would also determine how good a time we would have at the beach. Needless to say, we had a blast!!! We were thrilled that the judge ruled in our favor and here we are... more than a year later, getting ready to go on vaction again!! I can hardly wait. Last year Sweet Pea was not even walking (she was 10 months old a that time). This year we will be hard pressed, I'm sure, to keep her out of the water. I hear where we are going that the water should still be warm!? We'll see!! I am just thrilled to be able to get away..THANK YOU MOMMY!... and be ocean front again. I love the ocean. I don't have to get in it... I just love watching it. I marvel at it and often meditate while gazing. I have hopes and plans of finally catching up on my bible study that I am officially 37 days behind on this particular study. I truly felt I was supposed to do it... but have not have the time or the energy to devote to it properly. I don't want to give is a lick and a promise, I want to delve into it and see what message it has for me... because I know it has a message..! I've been so lax for so long..... BUT, I aspire to do better!! Wish me luck!!
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