Thursday, November 12, 2009
I'm going to hold Beth to her promise. She said that if I did this study, and commited to this study, God would work a miracle in me and I would be free... I'm holding her to it I tell you!!!
One thing that she did say that really got my attention.... Is what I am holding on to worth what I am giving up? Basically it's saying that God has so much in store for me and my holding on to certain things may be keeping me from those blessings. I know that I am holding on to many things... It reminded me of a dream I had a long time ago.... I was on a stage and in my hand was an alabaster box. I wonder what was really in there... Random thoughts, sorry ..... back to my topic...
So... I have commited to this study. and I am holding Beth Moore to her promise.. Stay tuned for the transformation!!!!
Isaiah 61:1-3 (New International Version)
The Year of the LORD's Favor
1 The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me, because the LORD has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners, 2 to proclaim the year of the LORD's favor and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn, 3 and provide for those who grieve in Zion— to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the LORD for the display of his splendor.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Out of the blue last week, that worn piece of taped paper ended up on my desk. Looking at it, I can see holes in it so I must have hung it on my bulletin board above my desk... only to have attached other things over top of it. I read it, recogized it, and stuck it under my keyboard to read later.
Today, as I walked back into my office, (I was only gone a few minutes) I see laying, smack dab in the middle of my chair, that word..... God is trying his best to get my attention.... I know because of a verse that always shows up when a word is spoken over me....
The word was:
"Have I not said unto you that I will not withhold anything from them that walk uprightly. If ye abide in Me and My Word abide in you, you can ask what you will and it shall be done. I am a living God. You will serve and worship a living God. I'm the God of the past, I'm the God of the present, and I am the God of your future. Trust in Me, saith God - Lean to Me, look to Me, saith the Lord and I will make ways where there is no way. I will provide where there is no provision, for I Am the Lord your God who loves and cares for you".
I've been a very hard headed child lately.... I know what I need to do... I just have a hard time doing it. Yet, He has been very patient.... I'm grateful for his mercy. Forgive me, Father... I repent.
John 15: 1-7
1 I am the true vine, and My Father is the vinedresser. 2 Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit, He takes away; and every branch that bears fruit, He prunes it so that it may bear more fruit. 3 You are already clean because of the word which I have spoken to you. 4 Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself unless it abides in the vine, so neither can you unless you abide in Me. 5 I am the vine, you are the branches; he who abides in Me and I in him, he bears much fruit, for apart from Me you can do nothing. 6 If anyone does not abide in Me, he is thrown away as a branch and dries up; and they gather them, and cast them into the fire and they are burned. 7 If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you.
Monday, October 26, 2009
Each of the 5 girls were told to put a white coverall suit on over top of their bathing suits. As each of the girls gave their excuses for not sticking to the diet and workout program, someone would write those excuses on their white suit. They were covered in excuses... Some were like "I'm too tired", "I just didn't care", "I don't feel like it", etc... very legit at the time, I'm sure. Then they had to stand in front of a mirror with their excuses written all over them.... THEN... and this was the kicker for me... they were told to take off their white suits and look at the consequences of their excuses did to their bodies.... I gotta tell you, it was eye opening to me.
I have wanted to start working out again.... and I have a plethora of excuses. I have asthma and I am having a hard time breathing, when I get home the baby is calling for me, the dog will bark if he hears me go downstair, the treadmill is buried with the Sweet Pea's larger toys, I'm tired.... the list goes on and on.... sigh.... and as I write those excuses on my imaginary white coverall suit, I know that the reality is, there are no excuses... Just poor decisions...
Thursday, October 15, 2009
But, who am I to judge? I, too, have seen the miracle of God. Oh sure, I personally have not seen the waters part... I have never gone out on my lawn and picked up my manna for the day.... But, I have seen the provision of God in my life many times. I have felt His presence. I have heard His voice....
So, what am I thinking? Why is it that I don't trust God in my heart? Oh, I say I trust Him; however, my thoughts contradict that. The fears and frets in my heart say that I don't trust Him completely. And He knows. I am such a foolish child. From where He sits, this makes me no better than the Israelites back in the wilderness. How I must hurt the heart of God with my doubts and fears. How would I feel if my own children wouldn't trust me to be sure that I had their back if they needed something?
Actually, in my mind, I am worse than the Israelites wandering in the desert. They were not able to go to His throne. Due to Christ's sacrifice, I can. How deceived have I allowed myself to be? I have allowed the chains of fear and distrust to put me back into bondage. My murmuring and muttering and actions probably mimicked those back then. I find myself saying life was better when I didn't know better. Others can do things that I can't do any longer. They don't have to live a consecrated life. They get to have more fun, or so it appears... I seem to have forgotten the big picture....
If I be honest, I guess part of the problem is that I don't have the relationship I use to have with Him. Back when I saw the miracles and wonders I was also spending more time in His presence. I have allowed so many things to take my time away from him. Work, TV, sleep, internet, they all seem to take priority. I find myself fretting instead of thanking. I find myself worrying instead of trusting... God has not changed, I have.
Thankfully, He knows my story from beginning to end... It's time to drag myself out of the miry clay I've allowed myself to get stuck in. I realize that.... Once again, it's time to get out of the wilderness mentality and more forward into my promises from God... I'm going to move into my Promised Land of milk and honey ... Hopefully I can make that move and not look back...
The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer;My God, my strength, in whom I will trust; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Besides the fact that they teach each other bad habits....
Besides the fact that they both seek your undivided attention....
Besides the fact that two really are more trouble than one when it comes to caring for them... I did fall in love with her BUT
She was afraid of Sweet Pea (rocks had been thrown at her in the past so she was fearful of children) and would sporatically nip at her. It just was not safe for the baby, nor was it fair for Jenny to have to stay separated from the rest of the family.
Sometimes we think we know what we want, but when we actually get it, it's not really what we thought it would be... Some ask for a better job, only to find out once they get it, that it really isn't all it seemed to be... Some ask that their significant other be more attentive, or less attentive, or just different, but when it happens, it's not quite what they perceived it to be...
I guess in the long run, had I taken the time to think thru getting another dog, I would have not grabbed the first one I saw.... Had I stopped and prayed about it, I'm sure the answer would have been, "not now". My husband still wants another little fellow to play with Mickey... me, I'm not so sure Mickey being an only "child" is a bad thing. Time will tell.....
Proverbs 3:5-6 (New International Version)
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; 6 in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will direct your paths
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Please understand, at the risk of sounding wack... Let me say.... I know that I have heard the voice of God. It scared the poo out of me and I covered my head with my blankets. I had been singing a song in my head as I was getting ready for bed. "This is the day that the Lord has made... I will rejoice and be glad in it"...over and over I sang that in my head.as I crawled into bed.... Then suddenly, I heard... "No, Cindy, this is YOUR day". It was as if someone was in the room speaking directly to me. But nobody was there but me.
I've felt the arms of God's comfort before.... I was really upset and in dispair over something... to the point that I crawled into a closet to get away from everyone. Huddled down on the floor, I broke down and sobbed. I swear to you, I felt arms wrap around me as if to say, it will be ok.
2 Corinthians 12:9 (The Message)
7-10 Because of the extravagance of those revelations, and so I wouldn't get a big head, I was given the gift of a handicap to keep me in constant touch with my limitations. Satan's angel did his best to get me down; what he in fact did was push me to my knees. No danger then of walking around high and mighty! At first I didn't think of it as a gift, and begged God to remove it. Three times I did that, and then he told me,
My grace is enough; it's all you need.
My strength comes into its own in your weakness.
Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ's strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become.
Monday, September 14, 2009
“ Who among you fears the LORD? Who obeys the voice of His Servant? Who walks in darkness And has no light? Let him trust in the name of the LORD And rely upon his God.
Friday, September 11, 2009
Yup, gonna get Linz to put it on and snap her picture and send it off to Zazzle for postage ! hee hee... may even make her throw on a shower cap.... Ha Ha....I can't wait!!! This weekend I'm going to see if I can throw this together!!! Can't wait wait to post the picture...
Thursday, September 10, 2009
"I took advantage of the $8000.00 tax credit to buy my new house and the cash for clunkers program to get my cherry red convertible.
Sweet Pea xoxoxox
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Friday, September 4, 2009
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Ah well... so much to do, so little time... !
Sorry about the lack of thumps this time....I'll work on that, ok?!
Hugs to you all!
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
So, I will be here if you need me..... (but you will have to let me know that you do!)
All I ask in return is that you don't just call me when you need to borrow money, ok?
::: smiling again! :::
Sunday, August 30, 2009
I met with my cousin yesterday for a brief visit... too brief. Wish we could have visited longer, but alas I had another obligation to fulfill so we had to cut it short. Hopefully next time we can make a day of it! We talked about this and that as we tried to catch up on the years past. There was one thing that stuck in my mind. She mentioned that she and her husband had also talked about the high dollar homes and the people that afford them. Her husband told her simply, that there is a secret to wealth and that they just were not privy to that secret. I guess not everyone is meant to have wealth. Not real sure why, but it appears that my husband and I are also not privy to that secret. Another thing my cousin imparted to me... She knew she would never be a millionaire because she gives things away rather than saving for her future. She is a giver. The other side of that is that she reaps from sowing the seeds of giving. Bottom line, though, she is content and happy. She is waiting for her riches when she gets to heaven.
We have been a double income family in the past; and have enjoyed the benefits of such. We have also had to do with less. We have always had what we needed. I guess that is where we fall into realizing that we need to be content where we are. My cousin has the secret after all...
Philippians 4:11-13 (New International Reader's Version)
11 I'm not saying that because I need anything. I have learned to be content no matter what happens to me. 12 I know what it's like not to have what I need. I also know what it's like to have more than I need. I have learned the secret of being content no matter what happens. I am content whether I am well fed or hungry. I am content whether I have more than enough or not enough. 13 I can do everything by the power of Christ. He gives me strength.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
One of my friends has said that I need to market myself. Maybe I should.... I don't know. Maybe I can start posting slideshows of some of my crazy functions on my website and see if it generates any business.
Yes, I may just check into trying to plan a few events.... I will have to really pray about that... In the meantime... I just want to take this time to thank God for the gifts and talents He has bestowed on me. I know that many have enjoyed the fruits of my labor and hope that I can do this for years to come. Thank you, God...!
Monday, August 24, 2009
When we take Mickey out to potty, sweet pea insists on going with us. I'm about to throw a harness on her as well! Mickey is going one direction, she is going the opposite! I try to get her attention, but I may as well be speaking martian because those words go in one ear and out the other. To say she is strong willed is a gross understatement! Thankfully Mickey is so small he is easy to scoop up as I go retrieve my little darling!!
As frustrating as she can be, she can also be just as loving. There is nothing more heart melting than when she looks up at you and gives you a sweet, sleepy smile as she nods off to sleep.... or that happy smiling face telling you "good morning"! Ah, I am a sucker for her! We love her so very much. Wrapped around her finger... yup....
As I was sitting and watching her start to wind down to go to bed, I thought about how we are often defiant and do not listen (or even hear) our Father's voice. He is always speaking to us, guiding us, asking us to trust him. Defiant and hard headed... tisk, tisk, tisk.... But you know what? He still loves us even when we are acting like two year olds! When we are not listening to him, we are holding Him back from being a sucker for us!
Much like us with our sweet pea.... Our Father wants us to listen to His voice so that we can follow His direction...
He wants us to rest in Him....
He is our provider...
He wants to protect us.....
He wants us to trust in Him..... not try to help him by coming up with our own plans (man am I guilty of that!)
He wants us to be still and know He is God.....
He wants us to believe Him
hmmm... How many blessings have we missed...?
Psalm 23 (King James Version)
1The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
2He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
3He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
5Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
6Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you."
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
My health is good, my needs are met, I have a wonderful family, I have good friends, what more could I ask for?
There are many scriptures that refer to the words we speak...
I mentioned that my iPod turned up. On the Friday before I told Jenn that I felt my iPod was going to turn up and low and behold it did! Now, I'm not saying that was the only reason it turned up, but it sure could not have hurt! I am also not saying that just because you say it, it becomes true... but sowing seeds of a positive nature can't hurt, right?
From now on, (at least that's my plan!) I am going to work on what I say and try to sow positive vibes. I will speak life into positive thoughts and death to the negative ones and continue to be blessed and highly favored!
Psalm 141:3: "Set a guard over my mouth, O Lord; keep watch over the door of my lips."
Proverbs 18:21: "The tongue has the power of life and death...."
Hebrews 13:15: "Through Jesus, therefore, let us continually offer to God a sacrifice of praise -- the fruit of lips that confess His name."
Man... I just wanted to tease Linz about how I have her shower plans online... but SHE can't find them b/c I have them unsearchable... then here it comes again.... yup, a thump.... I can also access God's word anytime via that same handy dandy air card and notebook.... Sigh... I really have no excuse to not read and study His word. I do admit, I tend to get tunnel vision when I am working on a project (to the exclusion of everything else)... Point taken....
But still it is really cool!
.... gotta love a blog!!!
image from Google
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
<--- here she is at her wedding shower with her condom corsage! .
She is dying to know the theme of the shower and has even had the nerve to tell me that it is stressing her out and stress is not good for the baby.... LOL... I'll give her an "A" for effort!
Hey Linz... psst.... wanna know the theme???? I know that was just mean!
Lindsay has always been my "got to know" child. She can't sleep on Christmas Eve and tosses and turns in excitement. She is the first to rise (REALLY EARLY!). Her enthusiasm will be so exciting when her family grows and especially when Russell or Betty Ann are old enough to understand Santa, Easter Bunny, etc... We look forward to spending Christmas with her for years to come! .
If you know something she is getting and you tell her you know, be ready to enjoy watching her squirm as she tries to extract the info from you. She will follow you like a puppy looking for it's mother.... she will call you at random times.... she will bug you to death in an attempt to wear you down.... Sometimes I give in because I was just egging her on to begin with... other times I stand firm! (cause I can!)
I told her that I had decided on a theme for the shower. It has been a source of entertainment for me! It also ensures that she keeps in touch with me! LOL.... just kidding she's good about that! (ahem.. unlike her sister who does not call as often! ahem)
She will have to wait until the shower to find out.....
Sorry baby... it would not be fair to tell you and spoil your surprise!!!
LOL... I'm just kidding!
I have decided to humor her and let her know the theme. There will be things she does not know but it won't hurt to show her the yard display or the invitation..... I have a lot of ideas up my sleeve and I need to start now in order to get it all together. She will most likely try to show up HOURS early becuase she just can't help herself!!! But that's fine... I'll just put her to work!
A Baby Shower!
Monday, August 17, 2009
Both she and her friend are of like minds. They do not feel you have to go to a church to talk to God. I am inclined to agree with them. Oh, I understand the iron sharpening iron theory, and I get that you should fellowship with like minded people to help yourself to grow in the Lord. But, I'm sorry, just because you are in a garage, it does not make you a car... likewise, just because you go to church, it does not make you a Christian. That is just my opinion. Now, that being said... I am sorely lacking in my bible studies. I use to crack open that book daily and read it. Not so much anymore... I acknowledge I need to do more of that. At least if I were going to a church service, I would crack it open once a week..... Point taken, God... I hear you and I will work on that!
2 Timothy 3:16 (NIV)
16 All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness,
Sunday, August 16, 2009
I don't know what I would do without my wonderful man. While I am at "the day job", he runs the home, takes care of the baby, basically runs the business(es) by taking the calls, making the deliveries.... When I get home from work, I can usually find dinner ready. I am truly blessed! I love this man more than anyone can imagine. He is my soul mate. He is my very best friend. He's the yang to my ying! He completes me!
If you know us, you are aware that we have been dealt a lot of challenges the past several years but those challenges have made us closer and closer. I thank God that He has placed this wonderful man into my life! He is kind, gentle, condsiderate, romantic, patient, funny, I could go on all day... so let me stop now!
I just want to say thank you, Buddy, for loving me and being the wind beneath my wings! I love you.
Friday, August 14, 2009
So... In my quest to document my thoughts, I go to google images and lo and behold... I AM NOT ALONE! It appears that may have already thrown a shower for new furbabies. I typed in "puppy shower" for idea on websites and received 2,510,000 results! Lots of folks are of the same mindset as me!
So, that being said, I think I'm going to drop some hints around my close friends and see what my chances are for a shower for my furbaby. I am betting the odds are ... oh, maybe ZERO! They humor me, but only to an extent! But... I do have some friends that have their own furbabies so.... maybe??
<---- look at that sweet face! How can you say no? His birthday is in April, maybe I should throw him a birthday party?
Puppy Shower image from google
Thursday, August 13, 2009
My new phone does way more than I will ever need and I have yet to figure out some of the basic stuff, but it is kinda neat, don't you think? It will help me immensely with texting (as my kids and a few friends are notorious texters, even though I have told them over and over again to just call me and don't text! But, now, I am not as against texting anymore because I have a keyboard at my disposal! YEAH!!! I have yet to figure out how to make the touch screen respond to my touch when I need to scroll. I often end up opening up the flap and using the up / down key manually, but I'm working on it! I'm determined to figure this out! I consider it my stepping stone to getting more technically UNchallenged! I plan on figuring out all the stuff this little baby can do! ... sure do hope my exploring does not inadvertantly run my phone bill up :o/